Fasting and Feasting

I cannot fast without feasting.  I cannot attempt to give something up without filling myself with something else.  As I give up that which consumes me, I must fill myself with that which sustains me, not my body, but my spirit. 

"Man cannot live on bread alone, but on every word that proceed from the mouth of the LORD." Deuteronomy 8:23

My day always starts with grand intentions.  And I do well, until the words of my father get lost in the loudness of the world.  I slip, I rationalize, I decide to start again tomorrow.  You see I can only continue to give up what I enjoy IF I continually replace it with something I desire far more.  I desire this intimacy that draws me to my Abba Daddy. 

The question is why? Why in the tough moments do I give up the BEST, give up what is COMPLETELY satisfying, for what is mediocre and can only satisfy for but a moment?  I have lost sight of HIM. 

I must meditate on HIS word, listen for HIS voice...moment to moment.  Without HIS filling, failure is guaranteed!

Failure is not my desire in this moment, in this season.  I want HIS strength to be my strength, where I am weak I want HIM to come in and fill me with HIS strength.  That is his promise to me.  Intimacy with my Father is the greatest longing of my heart.  It is in this true fasting that I learn to feast in the realm that is far superior than the one that demands me to fill my fleshly desires.  It is in the act giving up that my heart learns to tune in to the rich, often quiet, sound of my Abba's voice.  The voice that I long to hear sing over me and whisper His love for me and lead me in the way that is everlasting. 

My spirit will never go hungry for My Father is my complete feast!